The Juliet Project: Journal Entry 12/19/14

I am excited again about this project. I went through a period of extreme fear during the final stages of releasing LAAC (the dance studio I removed myself as co-owner from), but I feel ready to start peeking back out of my shell in regards to creative development. Last night I went to Dr. Sarah's Thursday night palm reading class and it was very helpful in this regard. She pointed to my right thumb which was bending over backward, the inner/outside knuckle was white with a circle and the rest of the thumb was reddish-pink in color. She said that I had a project that I have been thinking about a lot but there hasn't really been any action yet and she asked me to talk about that My mind went in two directions: class (developing my own training/opening practice), and The Juliet Project. I started with describing TJP and she latched onto that one. She said to be careful about who I talk to very much about it, that it was a great idea that would start with a short film but it would broaden. I said that I felt frozen into inaction because I wasn't sure how big of a scope to go and who to bring on for different roles in the project. Dr. Sarah said that I am a great collaborator and that it would be an all female team. That helped a lot. I know I need to talk to certain women I have in mind about this project. I would ver much like to collaborate with several colleague/friends regarding the feminine, sexuality, self-discovery, transcendence, and self-love. 

This is a story of one girl's discovery of the divine feminine and her struggle to hold onto that despite all odds. Dr. Sarah asked about a monologue. I know that the monologue is indeed the starting point. It is coming to be time to start crafting this piece through words. I want to be very free in my thoughtfulness, to break chains through the act of refinement. I care for craft and impulse, for backbone and intuition. It is time to start putting my beliefs into action regarding my creative spirit and art. I am an actor, I am a filmmaker, I am a healer, and I am transcendent. I do want to be careful that I don't pass stuff off for fear, but that I collaborate and trust through full and rich love and support of the individuals I choose as companions and fellow sisters on this project. It is about love and belief. The project on all levels will be and is representative of this in all capacities and processes of development, creation, and sharing.